This is the 1st post I'm gonna write in blog spot.. I'm bored, that's all.
It's been quite a long time since I've written my last post, in friendster I guess, lame huh?
I guess I'll just write something randomly, since I'd decided to write.
Recently I've been spending my time in WoW, an online game. I don't spend much time with friends anymore.. no idea why, maybe I'm just too lazy to hang out, maybe I've been dwelling myself in the past, maybe my friends changes and I can't keep up with them, or maybe I've got no friends anymore? or all of the above?
I miss her, I really miss her, a lot. I wonder what is she doing now, far away from me? I wonder when will she come back? I wonder when I could strengthen my will, and tell her that I love her again.. I can't do things without her. I wish to talk to her, even if could only chat through MSN; I wish to see her, even I could only see her online.
I'm behaving like a zombie now-- sounds lame, but no joke. I've been sleeping at 7am, and wake up around 3-4pm, then stick my head into the game, and there goes my days.
I started to dislike sleeping, I don't listen to music as often anymore.. I've been spending my time in a visual world, that I could not even do well in there. My life is so funny and ridiculous.
Even though this is what I'm going through, I don't really feel THAT bad. I'm too rational to do anything stupid like smoking/drinking alcohol to ease my mind. I hate the smell of cigarettes, and I hate the taste of liquor.. I never find liquor enjoyable, no matter how my friends enjoy it.
I don't even know what am I writing now actually; I'm a mess I guess. What could I do to spend my holidays? What could I do to spend the rest of my time? What could I do without her?
This is a very senseless post, and I know it very well. I'm not really in pain or feeling pity for myself, it's just that I wanted to do some writings since I've never do it for quite some time already.
Life is dull, the same routine everyday. I hope I could write something different next time, no matter it's happy or sad, better than 'nothing', or just 'empty'.
That's all for now I guess.
