最近……

最近，常会不自觉地想起过去。

每当看见一些人、事、物，总会不经意地想起关于她的一些……

哈哈， 好久没在这里写这种东西了~

没想到，我们居然会结束得如此不堪。

我做错了吗？我不知道。心里确实是有点难过、遗憾，但同时却又为自己的坚决而感到欣慰。

最近很容易累，可能是因为常不定时睡觉吧？ 再加上白天通常都有一大堆东西要做，而晚上则静下来时，却任由思潮起伏……

有许多事，不知道该与谁分享……

有许多苦，不知道该如何宣泄……

有许多话，不想说出口……

发现，自己真的变了。从前的我，无法独自承受任何的不开心。每当不愉快的事情发生了，就必需要有人分担…… 而现在，却宁愿把许多东西往自己肚里吞了算。说到这，还得向许多人道谢呢~~

现在身处日本的 ‘面包’，谢谢你常常听我诉苦…… 几乎每次都是我在说，而你在听~谢谢，麻烦你了。直到现在，还常通过视频当我的‘垃圾桶’呢！哈哈~ 希望你一切顺利~ 感情上，学业上，什么都好！

老姐~ 谢谢你常为我分担难过，且给与我安慰，还介绍朋友给我认识，让我能和你们混在一起，忘了许多伤心的事…… 愿你能和你的那块‘木头’白头偕老~ 哈哈！

还有就是在怡保的‘衰女包’，谢谢你在我‘复原’的过程中陪伴我，让我度过了一段非常难忘开心的日子…… 希望你的感情问题能尽早解决、考试能顺顺利利！

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最后，还有……‘你’。谢谢你陪伴我的那段日子…… 不想提太多，也并不奢望你的原谅/体谅，但衷心希望你的那个他能把你照顾好，给予我无法满足的一切…… 祝你幸福、快乐。

呼~ 累了，该睡咯~ 待会儿还得当闹钟呢~ 哈哈！


-1.35am-

Under-Stress-Students

This is what happen when the students who are persuading Bachelor of Business & Commerce are overwhelmed with their assignments:

Lenne Espressimo- THANK YOU Stephanie Yap!! YOU SAVED ME FROM THE PIT!! I LOVE YOU SO MUCH!!
stupid pdf that corrupted my pc. BUCK YOU PDF!! GO FTW YOU PDF!! YEAH! LIKE... face the wall..

Stephanie Yap

HAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!! chicken thigh 

Ang Joonkie

whoa whoa.. what happened to ur assignment?

Lenne Espressimo-

1.0 Introduction
ill give you chicken tigh espressso.

2.1 Impact of external environment towards mental uncertainties.
my assignment boomed. my usb corrupted. my hard drive corrupted. my graphic card corrupted. my external hard drive full of languages only blardtards could understand. my modem auto shut down.

2.2 Redo Assignment
yesterday 4 am i redid my assignment. adrenaline rushed. like now even its only comment section under facebook. i'm typing like how i'm having sex with my MGW1010-Assignment2(draft 12e).doc

2.2.1 Adrenaline Rushes
well, i guess the adrenaline is still with me. i need some ramly burger. ramly burger is a type of burger, produced by ramly. ramly burger consists of burger bread, and a piece of shit that looks like meat. Besides, you can include vegetables, onions, cheese, lizards, or you can splat tomato sauce like how you eat kimbab. btw kimbab is good for health. eating kimbab is advantageous because it gives you energy. no energy, no gain.

2.2.2 The K-burger
as you can see, this is how we link kimbab and ramly burger together. However, i wanted to emphasize that the owner of ramly burger, Ramly, has been working on how to make kimbab a more delicious food in global. they had already researched about a new food called kimbabry burger. kimbabry burger is always delicious when eating because it is made of pork.

2.3 Movies I watch
The recent movie that i watched is spiderman. Spiderman is the best super hero for me. unlike superman. superman is a sissy. basically, superman becomes chickenman whenever he sees kryptonite. nobody cares about superman. all you do is spray him some krpytonite pee and he melts.

2.4 About Myself
Next, i would like to talk about myself. i am Harry Potter. well, people asked why the chicken cross the road? cz the chicken has wings. as for me, why did Dark Lord cross the road? Because Potter couldn't stop him. Anyway, i also love eating raw eggs. it's good for health. now it's almost 9. i am trying to..

2.4.1 What I'm Thinking in the middle of Assignment
Ahh.. i better stop my shits and quickly finish this report.

2.4.2 Continue from 2.4
I am trying to search for stuffs in youtube. however, i am very hungry.

2.5 Conclusion
To conclude. i am very hungry now. therefore, the 5 recommendations i suggest to myself is

2.6 Recommendations
- suit up
- utlize feedforward by preparing some money
- head for ramly burger with full speed to avoid wasting energy resources. in the meantime utilizing concurrent control to observe how far is my destination so i can correct actions by speeding up or slowing down.
- fully utilize selection process under HRM whereby you only select the prettiest and sexiest burger. order the burger. and pay for it
- enjoy the burger. utilize the whole control. prevent saliva from drooling when eating. as this will pull the reputation down when ppl sees me drooling like a blardtard.

Ang Joonkie Comments:
- title, table of content, cover sheet are missing, there is no significant relationship between the elements written. basically, out of topic, or rather no topic at all.

-executive summary is not present, wasted more than 5mins in my life to read this purpose-less report.

- it was quite well written even though it is simply random, until the part about burgers, they're food, and I'm guessing that you wanted to write about your assignment re-do issue.

-Introduction of yourself is off topic; you ain't no Harry Potter, and dark lord is not s'pose to exist in any of the Potter's series.

- recommendations are very interestingly written. management elements are present and well utilized, but lack of supports.

- references are absent. lack of support from any sources, at the same time assumptions are not made to clarify it.

- The rest are total random craps.

Conclusion:

FARK YOU LENNE U TOOK ABOUT 20MINS OF MY LIFE JUST TO READ THIS SHIT AND COMMENT ON IT 'SOMEHOW UNCONSCIOUSLY'!

 

Stephanie Yap

i dun even feel like reading it

Stephanie Yap

and jk, you're as bad as lin. so shut up

Ang Joonkie

Steph: your statement is informal, please re-phrase it and support it with Journal articles, since you're criticizing me by referring to Mr. Phang's work (Phang, 2010).

Stephanie Yap

shut up

Lenne Espressimo-

seriously. internet pisses me off!! (Charlene, 2010) sometimes it just gives you things you don't really need. for example.. heart attack? high blood pressure? high glucose pleasure? mental disorder? tsk.. do we need them..? seriously

Ang Joonkie

Steph: I don't even know how to cite that since a lot of people are using it.

Assumption: Assuming that there are majority of the population are using the phrase, "shut up".

Lenne: for good lord's sake, I was wondering about the same damn thing (Phang, 2010)!

Assumption: Assuming that good lord does exist, and that all the illness stated in Phang (2010) will possibly occur.

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I don't think anybody will even bother to read it, included myself (not again, at least). However, it might be fun to read it back after 10 years if Blogspot is still alive.

Thank you.

References: 

Facebook, (2010)

-9.49pm-

Little bit of Updates

Now now, I'd finally learned how to treasure my free time, LOL

Ever since I started Monash Uni, it's like.... BUSY! Thanks to my Uni life + Choir practices + Vocal lessons + LCCI lessons + exercising when I have time.... HOLY COW! I've got no time to think about other stuffs even if I wanted to! Well, at late night perhaps.

Anyways, I'm content... maybe way too 'content'. It's a good thing though; I rarely feel like I'm wasting time anymore. Errr... can't really figure out much to say, nothing's new? Ah... 1 of my dearest friend gotten into relationship already! WOOOHOOOO! When she told me I was likeL:" FINALLY!"  xD

Good for her, wish her all the best! :D

Recently I've started gaming again, yea. "Tales of the Abyss" RAWKS! I know it's an old game, in fact I've completed it once, but due to some reasons I lost the saved data, dammit! Oh well, it's the best of the 'Tales series' in PS 2, and the plot is great! So I can't really complain~

See? Cool? Spot the middle guy with red wrong hair? He sucks, HAHA! He's the main character indeed(the name is Luke), but I don't really like him 'til the later part of the game.

The blond guy on the bottom-right corner, Guy, yea, that's his name, Guy. Errr, I mean, his name is Guy, I'm not lying! He's cool, yeap, throughout the game.

Nothing much about the girls, unless you can't tell that the girl with long hair on the left(Tear) is beautiful(and she has a brilliant voice!) and the girl beside her(Anise) with a doll looks mischievous plus the last one with a Royal dress(Princess Natalia) feels... Royal? lol

Know what's missing? YEA! The blue 'thing' down there(Mieu the Cheagle, it's cute!) and that guy with spec plus a somewhat 'creepy smile'(you'll feel this way too if you've ever played the Abyss), Colonel Jade Curtiss.

Mieu is just somehow a pity pet of Luke, nothing much. Jade... Jade Curtiss, this guy is PRICELESS. His freaking lameness is totally compatible with some of my friends. Thanks to him I enjoy the cut scenes of this game very much, hahahaha......... !
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Oh crap, why am I talking about this so much? It wasn't my main intention to write this post! Well, you can see how addicted I am.

Anyways, I'm somehow 'enjoying' my life now, even though sometimes I feel like I needed more space to breathe, but it suits me well-- at least I don't have time to think about something  :)

Guess I'm gonna stop right here, gotta get some food that my mum just made!

Oh yea, Mother's day is near! Have you guys prepare something for the most wonderful & lovely lady in your life? Better do so if you haven't! Without her, you're not even suppose to exist! HAH!

Remember to tell her how much you love her if you didn't do it often~ it's a chance for you to not get embarrass by saying it on this special day! :DDD

Enjoy your life guys!

-6.57pm-

Relationship?

Currently in Monash's comp lab... we(Me, Lenne, Steph, Char, Chloe) are s'pose to do our assignment 2 for B & E stats ya know, but everyone ended up Facebooking and such(including me), expected lol

Well, when I was FB-ing + Reading online manga, I saw a 'kinda meaningful' post, some of the words makes me feel like writing a blog post to tell those who've been complaining about their relationship.

"相愛容易相處難，婚姻與戀愛最大的不同，就是「戀愛看的是對方的優點」，而「婚姻卻是要包容對方的缺點」。 "


"在決定要不要嫁給(娶)他之前，應該先問自己：我愛的是他哪一個部份？這個部份是他的全部嗎？"
"在決定要不要離婚之前，也應該先問自己：我討厭的是他哪一個部份？而這個部份是他的全部嗎？"
 
"與其說緣份是遇到一個能讓自己欣賞與被欣賞優點的人，倒不如說是緣份是找到一個，能讓自己願意包容與被包容缺點的人。"
 
"以戀愛的心來看婚姻，自然是怎麼看怎麼失望，我認為這樣的人是還不適合結婚的，否則必然會將自己的痛苦建築在別人痛苦之上。"
 
"婚姻須要經營，任何事業可以失敗重來，婚姻卻沒有這種特質！"
 
.....etc.
 
There're tons of words that are making sense, it'll be time consuming if I post every single one of them, haha.... Well, I've shared the link in my Facebook, so feel free to read it there. :)
 
p/s: ah jie, Jas, Cath... read it! xD
 
-1.43pm-

Busy Busy & Busy

 21/4/2010

Foooohhhh..... 1.51am eh? just reach home few mins ago @@"

Recently, I've been really busy.... simply busy! Right after I handed in my last piece of Assignment 1- Accounting, presentation for management & Assignmentsssss 2 awaits!

Luckily, get to relax bit when I'm with those Uni friends of mine... these buncha peps are crazeh! They can be nice, can be fun, can be an ass(in a good way), can be mega-awesomely lame, can be bitchy, can be friggin entertaining! For instance, crapped & bitched with them for this whole day afternoon, HAH!

Tell you what, ever since I started to car pool with Steph, I laugh da helloutta my ass every friggin Uni day man! It's real damn fun to have a friend like her who stone you every time when you're driving... except-- when she's driving, and traffic jam occurs. Trust me, nobody wanna sit in da same car with her for that moment.

Just gotta mention about this-- I got back my damn econs essay today... 4.5/10, well, expected, since I'm such an ass who always do things at last mins then screw everything up.

Anyways, I've been having practices & rehearsal for tomorrow(22nd) & Friday's(23rd) performances... it was real damn exhausting! Especially when Mr. Lim asked us to "SING IT TO THE EXTREME! THIS IS AN OPERA!" for the song Quando Menvo.. holy mother *beep beep*! Today's full run rehearsal ends at 12.3x am, and we had our supper at a mamak called Nali(wonder if I spelled it correctly), satisfied, fooh!

It's really tiring when I'm involved in a Quartet, an opera ensemble, choir, and back stage works at the same time! Learned a lot though.... seriously. It's my 1st time performing as a ensemble soloist (minor char, but a good start I guess :) for public performance!

Thank you Mr. Lim, for giving me such a precious chance to learn (even though you just put me in without informing me at all, LOL).

It's been quite some time since I actually get involve so much with the choir members... it's really fun to spend time with them. We joke, we sing, we enjoy every single piece of music, and we work together to make a concert work... yeap, it totally pulled all my attention away from... well, something.

Still, I feel like something's missing even though I'm so much occupied... except every morning I guess? haha..

Ah well... gotta sleep soon guys! Have been sleeping kinda 'early' these days man... my friends keep telling me that "how come your eyes so red 1 ah?", hahaha...

Owh, before that, recently I got addicted to the mange "One Piece"! Read it online though, seems like it's near to the ending part already? Don't feel like finishing it so soon :(

1 of my favorite character in this Manga is missing though... Brooke, a skeleton, hahaha...

-2.20am-

I'm fatigue

16/4/2010
Sheesh.... waited so long for a call, and now I just gotta get my ass off to my bed coz of this kinda reason she gave... zzzz...

Wondering why am I so stupid again eh? Oh well... Seems like... well, the usual thing in my mind, just gotta keep it to myself.

Anyways, was kinda happy today, finally finished my accounting assignment! :)

I rushed like shit... 1st I couldn't complete it at the deadline, plus I was FREAKING TIRED! Then, after I finished everyting, I rush to Mr. Ravi(the lecturer)'s room to hand it up, luckily somebody was coming out so I could squeeze in before the door lock again.

Before that, when I was doing all the staple work, Amos asked:" why your assignment looks so thick?" I didn't really bother checking and when I found a stapler written "for 50 pages and above", I just get it over with and rush to the office.

So, when I rush into Mr. Ravi's room, I was like:" sorry sir, printing problem(that's why I'm late)." *handing in the paper* "it's ok, leave it here." "thanks sir.."
Then, suddenly he was like "huh? why did you put this along with your assignment?" When I look at it----- FARK!!! MY UNIT GUIDE!!! NO WONDER IT WAS SO FRIGGIN' THICK DAMMIT! =__________="""

Yeap, embarrassing, I know.

After all the ruckus, I called Ms. Paul and told her about the lost book.. she was kinda, err, 'shocked' like I've expected? lol

I apologized and she told me we'll discuss it later when we have class.. sorry Ms. Paul, really didn't mean it T____T

Then, on the way home, I called the turtle since I wanted to have dinner with somebody(my family ditched me, somehow). He told me that it's Walter's early birthday celebration party today! I was kinda tired actually, was thinking bout having a quick dinner then go home and sleep! But since I haven't seen those gang of people for quite some time, plus the turtle keep convincing me, at the end I decided to go... yea, even though I was entirely fatigued.

When we reach there, I found out that it's a BBQ party! I love BBQ just so u know ><"
since I'm more interested in havin' fun cookin' those food-- esp the lamb chops! =D

17/4/2010

Well, I had fun, really fun... I'm kinda tired now so gotta skip all the details, hehe. I followed the turtle's car there, and he went off early, so Roy sent me home instead... he told me about sumthin', that've been keep bothering me for quite some time... yea, we had a long chat, not a very good 1 though.. so my mood kinda went down, wavering..

I saw her online when I reach home and sign in my MSN, with a big "T___________T" face on her msn pm. I asked her what happened, she said that she'll call me later... so I waited, doing nothin' right in front ma comp.. for god knows how long. Then it started raining outside.. it reminds me of how tired I am, seriously farking sleep. She didn't reply me on MSN, so I called her... she never pick up, but told me "my phone no battery." I was like... WHAT?!

So what's the point she told me that she'll call me? C'mon.. if she don't really feel like talking, just tell me that! If she really wanted to talk, she would've check her phone 1st isn't it? =="

Urgh.. tired like shit, gotta sleep now, whatever. Why should I get my mood down like shit for something like this? I actually bother? HAH!

It's been like 5 days 'almost-without-sleep'... gosh! Eyes blur like shit for 5 days @@"

Good night world! when I was typing my eyes was half-closed man, SHIT! ><"

-2.34pm-

坏心情

心情，好久没这么差了…… 原本被老妈无端乱骂一通，心情已经差得不像话了，谁知道…… 唉~~ 不想提太多，提了又怎样？她在乎吗？哈哈……

最近，开始习惯以英文写部落格了--她说不喜欢看华文嘛~ 一下子重写华文，还有点不习惯呢~ 呵呵~

其实，真不明白自己在烦些什么？也许就像 Stephanie 所说的，她不会属于我的，还是时候该‘走’咯~

日子久了，奢望的也越多。这样下去对大家都不好吧？真差劲…… 每次都是自己受不了而毁了一切的。我还真不知道自己还能撑得了多久呢…… 真怕会再次受伤害啊……

算了，不想了！还是去玩我的 Grand Fantasia Online 吧！

当心情差时，投入全副精神在游戏及漫画里，就好过得多了。

今晚……应该睡得着吧？ ^^"

-1.17am-