应酬应酬

  哦，我回来了……？

多亏了其中一位‘失踪多年’的、三八的‘女儿’问了我一句：“怎么那么久没看见你 update blog？”

答案依旧：“没什么好写的呗~”

呃…… 并不是说没什么想说的，而是…… 没什么必要了吧？老实说，自己也不清楚 -_-"

真的有好长一段时间没写东西了，感觉上怪怪的。回到了 blogspot，顺便看看了朋友们写的blog post，感觉很奇特呢~ 怎么说呢？是怀念吧？哈哈哈…… 是吧？

身在墨尔本，并没有经历想象中‘应该’会面对的困难。本以为精神上的支柱不在了，在这里的生活会非常艰难，但其实还好…… 虽然，还是非常遗憾…… 有些事情，发生了就发生了，我也已经无力再去挽回。人生，莫非得失，奈何得失。我又哪来的力气去在乎？再怎么在乎，也无济于事。该做的已经做了，该努力的也努力了，既然徒劳，何苦继续伤神？

今晚，多亏了一位朋友的几句话，提醒了我一些事情……原来不知不觉间，在感激的同时，我也把许多责任都往老爸身上推…… 很难解释，非常复杂的心情。总之，今晚真的多亏了这位来澳洲之前认识的朋友，也是我最难得的觅食伙伴 :)

其中一个多年来，压得让我几乎窒息的包袱，在几句话之间就掉下来了、没意义了。虽然，这可能只是她无心的几句话，但真的让我解脱了……

可惜，相隔两地让我无法能继续和她到处寻觅美食，哈哈！可惜老天没让我早点遇见她啊~ 哈哈！无论如何，还是感激、感恩。

在墨尔本的这段时间，真的多亏了两位朋友的照顾，陪我东奔西跑地购买一切的日常用品，带我到处逛逛，也代我品尝了许多美食！ :)

多谢了 Jas 姐！多谢了 Michelle！虽然你们可能不会看见这篇部落格，但我还是想在此对你们说一句：“感激不尽！” :D

当我在做着许多事情时，都会想：‘如果没有她们的帮忙，我到底会怎样？’。真的非常幸运！当初她们来的时候，可没我那么好运能得到这么多帮助耶！或许就因为她们，我才不会被寂寞吞噬了吧……

当然，也得感激住在这里的两位亲戚--小表姨及表舅！他们真的帮了我很多，载上载下的，多麻烦啊！感激~~ ><"

好啦，我真的不知道该写些什么了！只是应酬应酬回来写几句而已…… xD

该睡咯~ 明早还有课呢！

-1.24am-

谎言

好久没回来这了，似乎没什么值得回来看的。

最近发现，自己好像都活在谎言里…… 好累……

担心自己受不了的同时，还得担心一切被揭穿的后果。那么，又何必继续这样下去？

谎言，无论是出于善意或恶意，依旧是一种欺骗。

欺骗别人，是何等痛苦；欺骗自己，更是难以忍受。

但却想象不了，自己放弃了，决定不再撒谎的那天……

希望，身边的人都能明白、原谅我真麽做的理由吧…… 特别是，她。

呼……还好，就快没什么必要了，许多该结束的都结束了……

-2.09am-

Bless them, PLEASE!

Seriously... this is way too sudden.

God, if you're there, please bless all my friends at Japan. Even if you could only protect some of them, please be sure that they're in the 'some of them' group!

Yes, I'm a selfish bastard, I only cares bout those people I know. I ain't no saint, ain't no great man. I only want my friends to be safe... please...

If God does exist, PLEASE BLESS THEM THIS TIME!

-8.28pm-

烦烦烦烦烦烦烦！

唉…… 父母……

过不了自己那关……

思绪乱七八糟的……

最近，日子过得超没趣。父母的问题，就不多提了。

一个没办法让你感觉像家的家，你会想回去么？所以，都会常常找朋友们出来。可搞笑的是，当我过得还不错时，身边就不缺朋友；当我需要朋友时，每个人都忽然变得特别忙。

发现身边的好友，其实没想像中的多…… 也许是想多了吧~ 自己把别人当成好友，别人倒觉得你是多余的。有事的时候就请你帮忙，开心的时候就会忽然的 ‘想不起你’，把自己最不开心时义不容辞地伴随左右的那个人忘了（没夸张，我对认定的好友就是这样的）…… 能共患难，却不能共享福的朋友，太多了。

秉持着将心比心的原则做人，却发现到付出的越多，就只会让别人觉得你除了利用价值外，什么都不是。越了解对方、越熟络，就越‘好意思’利用……

曾经的情人，已让我深深地失望。

现在的好友，却让我心寒。

也许那些‘普通朋友’，才算是朋友吧！

一直以来，自己奢望太多，付出的也越多，但结果总是让人失望的。

被视为最离不开的精神支柱的父母，已成了最大的烦恼；身边的好友们，也让自己失望…… 自己到底该何去何从？

看来，自己真的该好好学会如何‘做人’了…… 自私点、开心点就好，对吧？

-7.19pm-

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现在的心情实在 ‘好极了’！

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FUCK THE WORLD!!!!!!!!!

发泄完毕，日子照过，好得很！吊！

For the Sake of Updating

Sometimes, you'll feel that life is a big joke.

That's what I'm feeling, right now.

If you've ever came to this point somewhere, somehow in your life, you'll understand what I meant without asking; if you have never experience it yet, well, soon you will.

Sometimes, there are some problems, some pain that we can't tell anybody apart from ourselves. We'll have to completely 'enjoy' those bitterness ourselves...

The reason that I'm writing this is because some one said that I neglected my blog(credit to Kelly the hot mama)... well, it's not that I intended to neglect it, but there aren't things that I especially wanted to write down... there is one though, but it is something that I can only face it myself and unable to share. Sorry if I'm being stingy.

Well... that's that. I'll just keep rotting since it's 3 months of holidays, at the same time enjoying that little 'bitterness' and that little 'satisfaction' that comes along with it...

Life, huh?

The Funniest Night Ever!

OK, I really don't wanna post something like this after so long since I last blogged but.... THIS ISH JUST TOO FARRRNNEEEEYYYY!!!! xD

The story begins about 12am(or so), I was kinda like sigh-ing about some nonsense, and was reading novel online at the same time, as usual. Then, just when I was thinking: "K, I'm gonna sleep earlier today, this is the last chapter!" Few minutes later, *BLACKOUT* LOL!!

At 1st I thought it's only my house, but after I checked the electricity box or whatever you call it, there's nothing wrong with it! I actually woke my mum up for that and when I look out-- OMAIGUT!! The whole taman farking blackout! -_________-

Well, I can't do anything about it and thought that I'll just sleep regardless of the rising temperature of my room(since the air-cond was on before that and it was still cold), but it's getting warmer and warmer 'til I got so damn 'spirited' and started to think about some nonsense-- I CAN'T SLEEP! basically -_-

After an hour or so, my phone suddenly rings. I don't usually receive call on that phone since I never give out that number, plus there aren't many people who will call me these days, so I was a little bit surprised. When I grab my phone and saw the person who's calling me, I got even more surprised-- it's Ivan Siah, the turtle. I was thinking why the heck he called me so late, and found out that his area also got blackout, lol. So, both of us decided to go out as neither of us can sleep in that condition.

The turtle asked me to pick him up and I agreed on that. However, when I was going out, I was like: "Wait a minute-- HOW DA HELL AM I S'POSE TO GET OUT THROUGH MY HOUSE'S AUTO ELECTRIC GATE (I don't have the key of the small manual gate)?!" -____________________-

At the end, I came out with the most traditional & BRILLIANT idea-- I climbed out, like a thief, hell yeah -_-
I thought that will be the best part for the night already, who knows............!

After I pick the turtle up, we planned to go to the McD nearby our housing area, but it was totally full(kinda expected, since there're people who can't stand the blackout like us) so we decided to switch our destination to the Connaught's McD. However, just when I drove out of the McD area, the turtle suddenly shouted: "OOOOEEEEIIIIII???!!!"-- on our right is our housing area, and the LIGHTS ARE ON!!! Which means, the electricity is BACK!!!  -____________________________________-

That wasn't even more than 15minutes since I left my house!!!!

Then I was like: "OK, let's go home~~~", HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!! The turtle was cursing all the way, and then even curse in Facebook with his awesome 'combo', which had never been heard for many years, good grief! xD

And yeah, here I am, gettin' all 'spirited', blogging such nonsense stuffs xD

My my... I think this is how life is eh? Sometimes when we can't stand certain hardships in life, we tends to give up and move to another path, just like how I can't stand the heat and went out with the turtle. However, god knows the goal is so damn near?! If only both of us have waited for another 15-20mins or so, we wouldn't have to go out for nuts! HAHA!!!

Oh well, guess I'll just take it as a lesson of the day! xD

セラヴィ . C'est la Vie! xD


-2.24am-

致谢

“身边的朋友～甚至家人可以给你劝的都劝过了。。。
叫你清醒过来又不是～因为你说自己很清醒=.=
反正。。。这条路你不选都选了～振作点吧！！
路还很长。。。你能逃避一时，不能逃避一世。。。
试想想，你现在多幸福～有这种机会。。。学习各种的东西。。。
有的人根本没这种机会。。。
所以～学会去珍惜吧。。。
学习当中，压力是难免会有的。。可是你说你最大的压力竟然是没有压力（！！！）zadao~无言。。。
现在的你。。最大的重任是把这条路好好的走下去。。。
做好自己当下该做的事，这也是最基本的事。。。
希望你自己能靠自己从中爬起来吧～
当然我也会为你加油的＝）
如果真的累了烦了。。就让自己休息休息～
途中休息只为了跑更长远的路嘛～XD
可是千万不要逃避～～～
切记。。。。我们都是人。。。更何况我们都是学生。。。
大家都在学习中。。。能读多少，能进多少不重要。。
最重要的是尽力了～尽力了就不后悔。。。。更不会觉得惭愧～”

这是一位我最重视的人告诉我的，真的非常非常感激她的这份心意~虽然，当我看见的时候已经从死气沉沉的状态中恢复过来了=P

无论如何，这份心意、这份关怀，我会永远放在心上，记在心里。不管以后会怎样，我知道身边永远有着这么一位朋友在支持着我…… 这么多年来，辛苦了你咯~ 垃圾桶不好当吧？ ^^"

答应过的承诺有许多，放飞机的却也不少…… 所以，这次我不打算对你做出任何承诺--因为，行动才是最好的承诺。接下来的路，请你继续提点我，提点我的愚昧；请你原谅我，原谅我的自大；请你提醒我，提醒我犯的错；请你看着我，看着我的成长。

知道你看了在偷笑啦~ xD 

最后，只想打从心底对你说声：“ 谢谢，有你真好！” =D

-10.10pm (11.10pm)-

Give Up?

Can I just say that 'I give up' now?

I've had enough with my stupidity, my own lack of knowledge AND the motivation to persuade it.

What kind of idiot am I huh?!

Seriously... I'm not doing well in my study, especially in Finance and Business Law; I'm singing nuts recently for my competition coming in 2 weeks; I've been missing my LCCI classes for weeks; I'm always lazy to attend any event of my working cycle to socialize; I can't even think positively but keep complaining when I'm under PRESSURE/STRESS; I'm FARKING USELESS!!!

Can I just say that 'I give up' now?

Can I just give up in my singing? Can I just give up in my study? Can I just run away from my work? Can I stop my LCCI lesson? Can I just DIE?! FULL WITH REGRETS?!

Hell yeah, I'm contradicting myself! I know that I can't give up any of these... and I shouldn't. Why am I such a bastard that will not have the urge to persuade knowledge?? How come others can but I can't? If it's all up to me to decide, THEN WHY AM I ALWAYS MAKING THE NEGATIVE DECISIONS?!

I know that it's pointless to say all these, I know that it's impossible for me to just stop and rot then die, I know that life goes on, I know that there's nowhere to run, but still...

Can I just 'give up'?

-1.47am-

Such 'Wonderful' Person in Life

Sometimes... some people just let me feel so.... fake.

I really hate the kinda person who hide things from me. What's wrong with telling me the truth? What passed is past, there is no need to hide, no need to hold back.

What's the deal with keep addressing me as 'brother' while trying to hide things from me and making me looks like a fool?!

It hurts... so much. Even though I'd once told myself to forget about what happened between the 3 of us, but what you're doing now is making it worse, to a certain extend where I feel like giving you a straight punch when you talk to me.

I knew that I should never take anybody as important anymore but... yea, I'm still dumb enough to take you as a brother, keep supporting you whenever you're down...I've never felt such intense anger and mood of crying for quite some times already, thanks for giving me that.

This heartache is far exceeded how it felt back then.

I guess I should just give up. I don't need/want such a friend, such a 'brother'. Thanks for all the helps you've given me thus far, truly appreciate that, including today's. But I really can't take it anymore.

You'll be the 1 person whom I can never forgive for my entire life time.

I'll still wish you a good life, for the last time.

and allow me to honestly curse you for once: FUCK YOU BASTARD!
sorry about that, but I mean it.

-12.23am-

Senseless Post

It's 1 of the worst day ever.

I've got no goddamn idea why am I so EMO/PISSED/MOODY for the whole day(yes, that's how I felt even though I might not have show it). Maybe because I've got not enough sleeps?

After the Kluang(Johor) performance yesterday, reach home about 1.40am, then slept around 3.30am, woke up around 4.45am.

Drove to KLIA to sent my lovely friend away (might be another reason why am I so EMO, LOL), drove all the way back ALONE for the 1st time. but of, I get to try and drive up to 190km/hr for like, 10sec? I was worrying that the petrol will die out on me anytime, but luckily it doesn't.

Back at home, face comp, slept for while, lunch, go to Uni.

back from Uni, go straight to UCSI for practice... after that went to makan with Johan and gang. Yeap, they're fun, they're adorable :)

Thanks to them I feel so friggin much better than I was before.

That babi Yuki is still so BABI! Won't pick up my call when I need someone to talk to (hope she won't see this). xD

Ah well, that ends my day.

26mins to go 'til 'Merdeka'. A friend asked me on fb just now, "How you gonna celebrate Merdeka?".

Well, good question. I would like to know the answer if anyone can provide me one.

24mins 'til 'Merdeka'...

That's it.

p/s:
I'm glad that Esien made it to Japan safely :)
I haven't done my accounting assignment that's due on Weds.
Have to rush up all the duet/quartet pieces before Saturday...
I think I've only slept for less than 3hrs (included lectures) today?

-11.36pm-

If U're in a relationship, married or none, read this. U'll know why at the end.

I don't know whether this or the Chinese version is the original, but it is truly worth a few seconds to share it and 5 minutes in your life to read it-- it might just save you from 'regret' before it's too late.

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MARRIAGE

When I got home that night as my wife served dinner, I held her hand and said, I've got something to tell you. She sat down and ate quietly. Again I observed the hurt in her eyes.

Suddenly I didn't know how to open my mouth. But I had to let her know what I was thinking. I want a divorce. I raised the topic calmly.

She didn't seem to be annoyed by my words, instead she asked me softly, why?

I avoided her question. This made her angry. She threw away the chopsticks and shouted at me, you are not a man! That night, we didn't talk to each other. She was weeping. I knew she wanted to find out what had happened to our marriage. But I could hardly give her a satisfactory answer; she had lost my heart to Jane. I didn't love her anymore. I just pitied her!

With a deep sense of guilt, I drafted a divorce agreement which stated that she could own our house, our car, and 30% stake of my company.

She glanced at it and then tore it into pieces. The woman who had spent ten years of her life with me had become a stranger. I felt sorry for her wasted time, resources and energy but I could not take back what I had said for I loved Jane so dearly. Finally she cried loudly in front of me, which was what I had expected to see. To me her cry was actually a kind of release. The idea of divorce which had obsessed me for several weeks seemed to be firmer and clearer now.

The next day, I came back home very late and found her writing something at the table. I didn't have supper but went straight to sleep and fell asleep very fast because I was tired after an eventful day with Jane.

When I woke up, she was still there at the table writing. I just did not care so I turned over and was asleep again.

In the morning she presented her divorce conditions: she didn't want anything from me, but needed a month's notice before the divorce. She requested that in that one month we both struggle to live as normal a life as possible. Her reasons were simple: our son had his exams in a month's time and she didn't want to disrupt him with our broken marriage.

This was agreeable to me. But she had something more, she asked me to recall how I had carried her into out bridal room on our wedding day.

She requested that every day for the month's duration I carry her out of our bedroom to the front door ever morning. I thought she was going crazy. Just to make our last days together bearable I accepted her odd request.

I told Jane about my wife's divorce conditions. . She laughed loudly and thought it was absurd. No matter what tricks she applies, she has to face the divorce, she said scornfully.

My wife and I hadn't had any body contact since my divorce intention was explicitly expressed. So when I carried her out on the first day, we both appeared clumsy. Our son clapped behind us, daddy is holding mommy in his arms. His words brought me a sense of pain. From the bedroom to the sitting room, then to the door, I walked over ten meters with her in my arms. She closed her eyes and said softly; don't tell our son about the divorce. I nodded, feeling somewhat upset. I put her down outside
the door. She went to wait for the bus to work. I drove alone to the office.

On the second day, both of us acted much more easily. She leaned on my chest. I could smell the fragrance of her blouse. I realized that I hadn't looked at this woman carefully for a long time. I realized she was not young any more. There were fine wrinkles on her face, her hair was graying! Our marriage had taken its toll on her. For a minute I wondered what I had done to her.

On the fourth day, when I lifted her up, I felt a sense of intimacy returning. This was the woman who had given ten years of her life to me.

On the fifth and sixth day, I realized that our sense of intimacy was growing again. I didn't tell Jane about this. It became easier to carry her as the month slipped by. Perhaps the everyday workout made me stronger.

She was choosing what to wear one morning. She tried on quite a few dresses but could not find a suitable one. Then she sighed, all my dresses have grown bigger. I suddenly realized that she had grown so thin, that was the reason why I could carry her more easily.

Suddenly it hit me... she had buried so much pain and bitterness in her heart. Subconsciously I reached out and touched her head.

Our son came in at the moment and said, Dad, it's time to carry mom out. To him, seeing his father carrying his mother out had become an essential part of his life. My wife gestured to our son to come closer and hugged him tightly. I turned my face away because I was afraid I might change my mind at this last minute. I then held her in my arms, walking from the bedroom, through the sitting room, to the hallway. Her hand surrounded my neck softly and naturally. I held her body tightly; it was just like our wedding day.

But her much lighter weight made me sad. On the last day, when I held her in my arms I could hardly move a step. Our son had gone to school. I held her tightly and said, I hadn't noticed that our life lacked intimacy.

I drove to office.... jumped out of the car swiftly without locking the door. I was afraid any delay would make me change my mind...I walked upstairs. Jane opened the door and I said to her, Sorry, Jane, I do not want the divorce anymore.

She looked at me, astonished, and then touched my forehead. Do you have a fever? She said. I moved her hand off my head. Sorry, Jane, I said, I won't divorce. My marriage life was boring probably because she and I didn't value the details of our lives, not because we didn't love each other anymore. Now I realize that since I carried her into my home on our wedding day I am supposed to hold her until death do us apart.

Jane seemed to suddenly wake up. She gave me a loud slap and then slammed the door and burst into tears. I walked downstairs and drove away.

At the floral shop on the way, I ordered a bouquet of flowers for my wife. The salesgirl asked me what to write on the card. I smiled and wrote, I'll carry you out every morning until death do us apart.

That evening I arrived home, flowers in my hands, a smile on my face, I run up stairs, only to find my wife in the bed - dead.
My wife had been fighting CANCER for months and I was so busy with Jane to even notice. She knew that she would die soon and she wanted to save me from the whatever negative reaction from our son, in case we push thru with the divorce.-- At least, in the eyes of our son--- I'm a loving husband....

The small details of your lives are what really matter in a relationship. It is not the mansion, the car, property, the money in the bank. These create an environment conducive for happiness but cannot give happiness in themselves. So find time to be your spouse's friend and do those little things for each other that build intimacy. Do have a real happy marriage!

If you don't share this, nothing will happen to you.

If you do, you just might save a marriage.
Many of life's failures are people who did not realize how close they were to success when they gave up.

A CHRIST-CENTERED MARRIAGE IS A MARRIAGE THAT IS SURE TO LAST A LIFETIME.

So then, they are no longer two but one flesh. Therefore what God has joined together, let not man separate. Matthew 19:6.

By Stephanie Halmilton

 

-3.15am-

爱上两个人的感觉……？

在 Facebook 里看见了一篇文章，标题是： 《爱上两个人的感觉》。

读完后，就觉得…… 不是吧？！这样的文章只会让夹在两个人中间的那个人更痛苦，更不知所措！

这样的情况/感觉，多数只会出现在女人身上吧？因为，只有多数的男生才会毫不犹豫地追求自己喜欢的女生，即使她身边有另一个人也好。

或许有点文不对题，但在你（不论男女）有着这一份感觉时，你可曾顾虑那两个你所谓 ‘爱着’ 的人的感受？

个人觉得，没有一段真爱是无须经过考验的。如果现在觉得身边的那位不是自己想要的，而身边又有另一个更好的，干脆点分手又有何不可？与其长痛不如短痛吧？同时能把时间花在另一个更好的身上，何乐而不为？

许多人看到这里都会觉得“你说得容易！大家在一起那么久了还是会有感情啊！说分就分？”。少给自己借口吧朋友！不爱就不爱了，别浪费时间把自己绑在一段没结果的感情，害人害己。如果还在乎另一半的感觉，那就分得干脆些，让对方早点复原以便能找到他的幸福不是更好么？

觉得自私吗？那先问问自己吧！有那段感情不是 ‘自私’ 的？有人会说，“我对他的爱是无私的、不求回报的！”。但就在 ‘无私奉献’ 的时候，你难道不是在期望着他的幸福吗？那也是一种 ‘自私’ 吧？

自己的幸福永远都是最重要的。在感情里，‘自私’无罪！

愿天下有情人终成眷属~

等等，好像忘了什么………………………………………………………………………………

糟糕！功课还没做完哪~~~ >____<"

-2.00am-

寂寞

觉得寂寞时，你会想起谁？


当你看见这问题时，你是否想起了谁呢？

如果，有一个人、一张脸、甚至一个名字或更多浮现在你脑海，那么恭喜，你并不寂寞。

如果，你想起的只有过去，还是过去…… 那请看一看自己身边，是否错过了什么。

如果， 你跟我一样，什么都不想想起，只觉得心里有个填不满，或根本不知该用什么来填满的空洞……那我只能对你说一句 “朋友，看开点吧！”。因为，我也只能对自己说同一番话啊……


寂寞的人，渴望着相聚，却又害怕相聚后的别离。 所以，寂寞的人通常都‘喜欢’独来独往……


寂寞的人，喜欢与文字为伍，因为寂寞的时候，陪伴着他们的除了文字还是文字……


寂寞的人，都喜欢听悲伤的音乐，不断地听，因为音乐中的旋律，就是他们感情的诠释……


寂寞的人，唱着寂寞的歌，写着寂寞的故事，不是因为他们喜欢寂寞，而是他们早已习惯了寂寞……


-12.50am-

Genting Trip

Alrite, it's time to update a little! I've been lazy for quite some time, seriously.

5 days plan last week, mega-awesomely tiring but fun! The plans are:

2/7/2010 (Fri) - The gang came over to Cheras, my house basically. Fetch them to Sg. Wang to meet up with Kim, then drove over to Pavilion for Pepper Lunch! :D
It's damn good no matter how many times I take it! After that, spend some time at my house, Twister Frenzy, PS-2... took a lot of RETARDED photos, still waiting for those who have it to post it up. After that, went to Temptation for dinner! xD

3/7/2010 (Sat) - Went over to Chloe's house to stay over for a day, since we're departing from 1-U's bus station. I had fever dammit, out of a sudden -_-
So they kinda waste their time getting me some rest. After that, went to 1-U for dinner, shop for snacks, and get myself some medicine. Neurofen is damn friggin' effective, no joke! After I took it I feel so much better after an hr or two. I only took 2 of it and I'm all good the next day! :D
Anyways, we went to New York-Deli for Dinner(we went there last time when I was having fever too, lol) and bought hellotta snacks & some nice vodka from Cold Storage for genting :D
At night, spend some time for the King's Game.
JJ & me had a lot of 'fun' sleeping, thanks to the aquarium -_-

4/7/2010 (Sun) - Depart from Bus Station near 1-U, I got a solo seat(they ditched me T_T ), and ended sitting with a granny. The worst part is, when we were on the way, 2 aunties/grannies sitting in front and behind of me, keep pulling the farking curtain while leaving me vulnerable to the damn Solar power. I got grilled medium well, FARK!
After we check in & leave our stuffs near counter(since our room is not ready yet), we walked around First World and decided to go for archery then the haunted house. Archery is fun! Steph noob, HAHA! Haunted House wasn't all that scary, but Chloe grabbed my back friggin' tight all the way -_-
Then, we go for our Buffet lunch at Coffee Terrace which is included in the bus ticket package Lenne bought. It took us friggin' more than 30mins to look for it thanks to all those stupid directions given. We have to walk all the way from First World to Genting Hotel,dang it. The Buffet is fine, nothing special though.
After our lunch. we went all the back to First World for "Ripley's Believe It or Not" stadium. A lot of interesting stuffs to see, so much that we were almost late for our room.
Next, PS-2 section and bathing. It took around 2hrs for every1 to bath! Next time we have to get 2 rooms or else bathing will consume most of our time. Went to some Hot Pot for dinner, it was torturing thanks to the oil... lazy for details, for those who went, yea, no more Hot Pot at Genting -_-
PS-2 section resume, then girls went to bed. The guys, Lenne, Me & JJ, spend whole night chatting nonsense and slept around 5-6am. It's fun to have guy's talk once in a while though.

5/7/2010 (Mon) - Basically spend whole day for rides. I'm getting lazy so gonna skip all the details, lol. They ditched me again, got stuck with the love birds :(
Lunch @ KFC/Burger King. Dinner? the snacks we bought lolz. We played Twister, King's Game, murderer, etc. Those snacks served its purpose very well. Sleep after that.

6/7/2010 (Tues) - Basically, pack & ciao. Went for lunch, the friggin' economic rice I took cost me rm23, like, WTF?! But yeah, its Genting after all. We also went for arcade before we move to bus station, I never play much, but it's fun watching them play, haha. And guess what? they ditched me AGAIN for the bus, so yea, I got seated with an uncle, not as bad as last time though. I hold my curtain this time so that I won't get grill again, LOL
Then, mum picked me, Steph & Kim up at Chloe's house and yea, that's all for the trips! :D

Gosh, it's really a pain in da ass to update so many things at once! but I don't wanna forget any of it, so just gotta spend some time to write them down ~_~

Lastly, I'VE GOT MY PS-3 TWO DAYS(which is a day after Genting) AGO!!!! HAHAHAHAHAHA!! It's FRIGGIN' COOL! The remote joy-stick pawns it all! I bought Star Ocean The Last Hope, it's quite awesome, not as much as I expected though, but still, GREAT!!! XD
Imma looking for Tales of Vesperia and cheap FF13 now, hope that I can get it asap~ ><"

Btw, GUNDAM-00 IS COOL! and 16th of July is my execution day- result coming out -_-

Ok, done with random + quick update, and now....


Omg I'm HUNGRY, food~~~~~~~~~>"<

-2.59pm-

RANT!!!!!

Such a fuck-up holiday... dumb subjects arrangement of Monash, thanks A LOT!!! =="""

There's no way you can major in both Marketing & Finance within 3yrs time in Monash Uni no matter how you arrange your time table... so guys, go to other Uni if you're thinking bout majoring in these 2 subjects instead of this worthless-piece-of-shit Uni. >.>

I've been struggling through the 1st sem thinking "it will be fine after this. Once I get through all these troublesome subjects, I can go for my major subjects and complete them peacefully!"

BULL SHIT!!!

MONASH SUCKS!!!!!!!!!!!

and I hate epic-failed-plans man, seriously. I got it twice this holiday, when I'm so much looking forward to it >.>

Sigh... guess I should quit planning stuffs, just follow the flow like I usually did. Why spent so much effort and get turn down eh? People are so funny, they could just say "yes, sure, why not?" "of course I'm on it!" "aiya, you call dou I sure on!" etc. when they're planning about it, but "oh I can't make it." "Shit I forgot!" "huh? you guys never tell me also!" "got such thing ah?" etc. after you plan everything... Geez...

I've got no idea why some people could be so much enthusiastic about outing's planning and the actual outings, while some can just 'show' you that they're very interested, like it's freaking gonna happen, but turn you down to the max the next second.

and my mum & sis really knows when is the time to annoys me most! HELL YEAH! =="

Oh well, guess I'll just let it be after all these ranting. Friggin' tired of this, seriously. >.>

Just take things less seriously I guess~

-6.49pm-

Holidays~

Well well... I guess I'm a little bit jealous- you're lucky bro, you have nice friends/"brothers" around to support you when you need them.

I've never actually had people who concerns & cheer me up all the time when I'm down... even though I'm always around when people need me, pfft. (Yes I'm complaining, if anybody don't like it then so be it, it's MY blog :P)

and at least you don't have to face something like your gf/ex went to your 'best friend' after you breakup with her, heh.

I hope you can get through this asap... I don't wish to get a flash back from you about things that happened to me before.

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Currently having holiday~~ and pretty much enjoying it :D

Though sometimes it's just soooooo free that I can't think of anything to do. Actually I still got quite some stuffs waiting for me: my new songs for the comptition, choir pieces, Tales of the Abyss, Kingdom Hearts, Glee, Full Metal Alchemist.......... etc.

I can even write them down into a whole long list! =="

However, sometimes you just feel like wasting your time.... I HAVE TIME TO WASTE, HAHA! xD

Just sit down, stare at the ceiling, thinking about the past... and learn something from that :)

or hide in my bed, empty my mind, sleep as much as I want to.

I really learned how to treasure my free time now, I've never love it as much before, LOL

I've got pretty much that I wanted to write actually... but I guess I'm too tired, everything went blank for now >.>

Oh well, it's time to go to bed! Tomorrow will be a half day outing with da Monash gang! xD

GOOD NIGHT PEPS!

-2.16am-

I'M FREE!!!

I'm finally through with all the papers!!! Even though I might fail like, well, 2 of them?

But still, at least I've tried my best last minute, lol

I guess I'll need to get some sleeps now... have been missing for god knows how many hours of sleeps already >.>

mega-awesomely tired!!!

NITEZ PEPS!!! :D

-1.37am-

Thoughts...

HAHA! FINALLY I'M THROUGH WITH STATISTIC PAPER!!! I'M FARKING THROUGH WITH IT!!!!!

Even though I might just fail it and gotta face it next year, but still... >.>

Yesterday studied 'til 4.30am, then wake up at 5.45am then straight away go for exam, hell yeah =_="

It was torturing... 'stress', I finally met you.

By the way, received a call from an old friend... he told me a shocking news... 4 years of relationship, how could this happen? What's in that head of his gf?? Gosh...

Well, I've got no right to criticize, since it's somehow non-of-my-business.

Anyways, it makes me realize that, even 4 years of relationship could just got blown away by some stupid reasons, so why should we struggle and got ourselves stuck in relationship?

I'm sorry for you bro, but thanks too, you made me realize how foolish I am... Yes, she don't need me, she got her own boy, I'm just... something extra- which could be there or could not be there, doesn't matter.

So, I've decided to walk on my own path as well...

For those who're enjoying your relationship, treasure every single moment, and remember them... remember the promises you've made with each other, remember the love you shares... don't hurt your loves one, or the one who loves you. Once you hold her/his hand, be prepare to commit and sacrifice- love ain't that simple after all.

For those who're struggling in relationship, either you keep struggling, or end it as soon as possible so that it will be less painful. Don't waste your time, don't waste other people's time; give yourself a chance, give others a chance. There is, always a better ones for you.

I wish all of you the very best luck!


Single ain't THAT bad after all  :)


-1.03pm-

Drown In Stupidity

I shouldn't have called.... feels worse now, wtf! ARGH, whatever!

Tomorrow is finals and guess what the heck I just did? 7 HOURS OF GAMING!!! TALES OF THE ABYSS ALL THE WAY!!!

Accounting will combo me and kill me tomorrow thanks to my own stupidity, FML!

-5.06pm-